Jason Christoff - My Two Biggest Self Sabotage Victories - Sharing Very Personal Details

When I was a kid, I was scared most of the time. I imagine that fear has indeed overshadowed my experience as an adult as well. I have some symptom-based overreactions, which indicate that my metabolic defense systems are perpetually in overdrive. I'm highly defensive in all I do, keeping physically fit, keeping financially fit, paying attention to super fine details that no one else would ever think of. Most of my decisions in life are based on increasing safety, protection and the personal security of myself plus my loved ones.

If there's a loud noise in a room, I usually jump first and jump the highest. Many times, when there's a loud noise in a room, I also notice that no one else reacted to it, other than myself. That's why I believe that I'm on edge more than the next person. I also believe this all stems from the tsunami of fear I swam in as a child. Yet never worry, this story gets worse in the middle but does get much better toward the end.  

What happened to me as a child wasn't the worst, but it wasn't the best either. I prefer not to get into the finer details of my fear-based existence during childhood but in essence, it was very simple. I was small and somewhat defenseless, weaker than the average person my age.

On this planet, for whatever reason, weakness attracts predators. That unwritten rule (law of the jungle) was in full effect when I was weaker boy, as I was attracting both dark adult and child predators my way, on a regular basis. I was basically living on the run for the first 20 years of my life, always trying to outsmart and outwit those predators, in order that I could just live another day. I would strategize minute to minute, in order to bypass the physical assaults that I was being subjected to. What was this weird place we all live on, where these are the unwritten rules? I still don't know the full truth regarding an answer to the question, but I had to adapt anyway. 

For better or worse, these do appear to be some of the rules of this virtual reality video game we call Earth. I don't believe Earth has to be as bad as I encountered it, but I do recognize the rules of this Earth game, nonetheless. In order to live here on the planet, we all have to consume the life force of another. What I mean by that is that when we go shopping at the grocery store, we're actually buying recently killed dead things, which were too weak to protect themselves from our predatory nature. Everything from the cow to the fish and from the carrot to the avocado, they're all available in the grocery store aisles because they didn't have the property defenses. We all need energy to live and we just take that energy from something else, in order to breathe for another day. This equation appears as an all-encompassing energy signature down here on the planet and of course, I was feeling that bizarre scary energy BIG TIME as a child. I was learning as I went, I guess. This planet seemed very painful and extremely unforgiving at times. 

We may not fully comprehend all this when we're shopping at the grocery store, but these are the rules of the game down here on this Earth based VR (virtual reality) simulation. There's no lion meat or shark meat in the average grocery store either, for this very reason, because those animals have superior defenses to most predators....including us as humans. In short, I was weak, predators found me, I couldn't fight back effectively and lots of my energy was stolen from me, by various predacious creatures. It's almost like all humans can smell weakness and react to it in very predictable ways. Predators appeared to smell me coming, miles away, before I arrived. 

Another rule of this realm is that you can either let hard times make you weaker or you can allow the heat of the fire to forge a tougher and more capable version of yourself. When you hit rock bottom there's nowhere left to go but up. That's the popular saying anyway. When you hit rock bottom, you can also crawl along the bottom for a bit as well. No one I know really talked about that option or strategy, which I participated in unfortunately. I liked the bottom, it felt comfortable and like home to me. 

I crawled along the bottom for a good stretch at times, but I quickly discovered that I didn't like that either, so I decided to start protecting my energy from the predacious creatures around me. My first step was getting physically bigger and stronger. I went to the gym, I started to eat more, and I started to lift heavy weights. I also made a vow to myself that I would never have my energy stolen again, regardless of what official uniform the predatory was wearing. It didn't matter if it was a priest, a police officer, a teacher etc.....if anyone tried to steal my energy again, I would defend my ground or I would die trying. Being a helpless victim was not a life worth living, or that's how I looked at it anyway. This new state of mind was a big step for me. I drew a line in the sand and vowed a death pledge to myself, to defend that line. To me, nothing else mattered more than getting rid of that first layer of fear, the fear of being physically attacked at any moment because I was weak. 

As I become stronger, one by one, I started to defeat the attacking predators that were so used to feeding off my energy. When the predators would come looking to feed, they found a different Jason, something stronger and a little darker. I pushed back with pure strength, power and dark rage energy. It was a bad and bloody day for the predators, as each one got what they justly deserved, for their ongoing intrusions of my energy field. One by one, as time passed, all the attackers took one big step back and started to give me wide birth wherever I went. That was only the first layer of fear to be removed, and I was happy that the physical attacks were slowing down and stopping altogether over time.

Little did I know that my biggest challenges in the future would have to do with battling the fear of being outside the group, on my own, without the herd to protect me. There's no amount of physical strength that can prepare you to overcome these "group pressure" based challenges. To overcome group pressure (the pressure of the herd) you need mental strength, which unfortunately I wasn't developing.

My original child-based fear was still simmering below my now stronger physical adult body. It was this original child fear, just hiding under the water line, which pushed me into drugs and drinking alcohol.......in order to fit in with the group. We all want to fit in, in order to find safely in the bigger herd, flock or wolf pack. My peer group, via all our inverted media sources, were taught to do drugs and to drink large amounts of toxic and poisonous alcohol. My peer group was no exception. Drugs and alcohol found us all.

The fear of being alone, outside the group, is the biggest fear any human can ever face down and go to battle with. Saying "no" to the crowd takes a journey so dark and so scary, that most people never go there. This is why humans fear public speaking more than death itself....because the crowd can judge you unfavorably when you're public speaking but can't when you've passed on. Humans are hardwired to be terrified of herd pressure and group judgements, as can be seen in the short video below.

Group acceptance, bonding and approval is where we feel the safest as humans......and therefore turning away from that group safety (because maybe the group is using drugs and alcohol etc) is where our biggest fears will be faced. I had two choices. Quit drugs and perish because the group pushed me out or keep doing drugs and die prematurely, while being accepted by the herd. These decisions represent the hardest we ever have to face as humans on this planet. That's why many die trying to fit in, because being alone is just too scary for them to grapple with. 

I was strong physically but still too weak to stand alone against the group, and protect my body, mind and spirit.....from the very dangerous intrusions of alcohol and narcotics. In that way I failed but again I also learned some very valuable lessons along the way. Eventually I reprogrammed myself to not be afraid of being alone. That's when I walked away from my group, to go it alone in the urban jungle and face an uncertain future as someone who didn't use alcohol or drugs anymore. And not a moment too soon I may add, or I may not even be here doing what I'm doing today. 

I learned many important lessons about myself during my ongoing role as "Jason", down here in this virtual reality game called Earth. I've learned to build strength instead of weakness. I've learned that mental strength is more important than physical. Saying that, to develop both is optimal. I've learned that if the majority are doing something, it's usually something that will make their lives worse and make them weaker over the long haul. I've learned that the hard road eventually becomes the easy road, and that the easy road always becomes the hard road. I've learned the benefits of being stronger and walking tall, by first being weak and crawling on my hands and knees. I've also learned that it's important to pass such lessons down to other people, in order that their pain in life is lessened a little bit. I've even learned that there are predators in government and media, who use mind control and brainwashing to make us much weaker versions of ourselves, so that our energy is easier to steal, pirate and plunder. Passing this knowledge onto people is now my life's work. I believe it's that important. 

Overcoming the self-sabotaging behaviors of drinking and doing drugs were my two biggest victories in life thus far. Just those 2 accomplishments have turned my life around 180 degrees. I now talk around the world on these subjects, and I've changed the lives of tens of thousands, by sharing my experiences with them. I am in the betterment business. I want you to be better. I want you to be stronger. I want you to keep all your energy. I want you to take an easier road, if possible, so you can climb success mountain much more swiftly than I did. You may not know me directly but your personal welfare (and that of your family) are my top priority. Everything I know is taught in my school, which specializes in certifying students as Overcoming Self Sabotage Coaches. Think of my school and program as a full life makeover, which has to do with making sure your full spectrum strength is at the highest levels possible. Click here to envision your new life of power, strength and focused intention. By now, you know you need to make a change. Click here to start your full life make over with me April 26th, 2025. The class is 38% full right now, so hop in and let's get better together.